When I was a child I thought the world was a perfect place. I believed a benevolent force worked through the people to keep the world just and true. I generally accepted everything I was told by authority figures such as my parents, teachers, and the president. I believed Santa Claus visited our home each year, I left teeth under my pillow for the tooth fairy, and I used to go searching for Leprechauns in hopes to find their pot of gold under every rainbow I saw. Everything had an explanation, a reason I could understand, which was very comforting and at times quite magical.
As I grew older things chipped away at my vision and dispelled the magic. It was bad enough to find out Leprechauns didn't exist and I'd never find that literal pot of gold but, on top of that, the world was full of lies. The idea of God was being used to manipulate the masses, the government was just as bad with it's unjust wars overseas and right here at home the "war on drugs" was full of bad science and outright lies. This shattered my belief system and the shock threw me down a reactionary path.
The problem was that without these constructed belief systems, I didn't know who I was anymore. So I decided to not only question everyone and everything, but to assume that everything popular was a lie. I rejected all popular TV shows, movies, music, politics, fashion and even food trends. This seemed like a better way to live, it seemed like I had really figured things out, I was such a clever boy.
This was actually just as bad as accepting everything as true. It still left me open to be manipulated by external forces. I would listen to terrible music, watch poorly made films, and entertain even the most illogical conspiracy theories simply because they came from a premise that we were being lied to and they had the secret answers. This too was comforting because it gave me simple answers to explain what seemed like chaos. It was easy to believe in alien lizard Illuminati masters controlling the world because that gave me an answer and a solid enemy to fight. After all it’s the punch you don’t see that knocks you out.
Over the years I have done my best to deprogram myself and to see things as they are without being reactionary. It’s not always easy to do especially when emotions enter the equation. In fact, my latest epiphany only came to me because I was simply exhausted. I have a theory that if you act from a place of personal integrity then the external B.S. can’t control you. Hence, you won’t waste time fighting phantoms or battles you can’t win.
For myself, this comes back to the concept of being a Datsusara (escaping the corporate salary worker life). I have always been deeply upset by seeing myself and others occupy their time with things that ultimately make them miserable. Now, I could have worked hard to find the external demons that perpetuate corporate slave culture and hunt them down. But even if those evil masters do exist, I don’t have the power to take them head on by playing their game. Instead I looked at what I was really trying to do. This wasn’t to fight a war so much as it was to find a path to freedom and help to liberate others.
I know I’m harping on an old concept here but I felt compelled to share this line of thought with you again. I hope to remind you that you all carry a talisman of sorts, an inner compass that always points true north, you only need to listen and act with natural integrity.
Related thoughts on this subject from some of my favorite people, Joseph Campbell and Robert Anton Wilson.
P.S. Thank you for your time and support. I only write these when I feel inspired and want to share. I don't do it to sell you on anything, though I try to tie things back to Datsusara as much as possible so we have a coherent theme here and not just my unsolicited philosophical ramblings. I hope you have enjoyed reading this and I promise I'm still working hard on all the more directly related company stuff too. 2013 is going to be a very interesting year for Datsusara and I'm glad to have you all on board.